show madness!

 hey club members!

i have been so insanely exhausted. this is for a couple reasons. Last week was tiring because it was my last week of classes. so i had a ton of exams and projects and nothing interesting to really say because I was so mentally burnt out. I was also dealing with some friendship stuff with some of my closest friends so I was emotionally exhausted also.

Last week was equally tiring i am afraid. this is because I was organizing and practicing for a show that I was hosting at the end of the week! my band severly overworked ourselves. we practiced for hours on wednesday through friday morning. my bandmate even slept over thursday night so we could finish the song we were writing for the next day. meanwhile the friendship stuff was still kind of lingering on my mind. 

The most stressful day was friday. Organizing and hosting this show was so intense. I will not be doing it for a while. And after all that chaos, i had to be ready to play while also sweaty and delirious from lack of sleep. those 5 minutes before I performed were actually hell. 

In the end, the show was a success. I am so proud of my band and myself for putting all that together. the only part I am unsatisfied with is how I forgot all the lyrics to the song we stayed up all night writing. I would say it was all in vain, but it really wasn't. I will not elaborate.

i will probably write something longer about this show. there are some details about a 7/11 and a pool that i want to include. but im still processing and i am still tired. so just wait.

I would post pictures from the show but i unfortunately took ZERO because I was too busy with everything else. and I will not post pictures of my band quite yet because I don't think I want my face on here right now. also I don't want to post someone else's pictures. so just trust me that it happened, ok?

on another note, I finally told someone about this blog. like 30 minutes ago. she was very understanding. I did not give her the link.

i still feel like I need to attach something to this post, so here's a snippet of the chorus we wrote

i wanted to believe

that we would make it to the summer

i couldn't be deceived

if only we were a little bit dumber

its not too bad for being written in a night

(walkman + pastel sketch from last week)

(might post the finished sketch another time)

(#bring back walkmans)

on an entirely different note just because I am still awake and writing (12:57am), what book should I read next? i loved Pandora's Jar but it took a while to get through because it was nonfiction. i feel like I need something very fast paced and summery and maybe with romance subplot or fantasy elements? i am trying to not buy any more books so here are a few contenders I already own:

- Persephone Station by Stina Leicht

- Stardust by Neil Gaiman

- Severance by Ling Ma

tomorrow I will decide as it is now 1:05 and I need to stop this.