Showing posts with label songs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label songs. Show all posts

1.11.2025

dog eyes

 i am sick with norovirus but i miss my blog badly. happy 2025 my club. the blogaversary is coming up soon!

to keep you fulfilled i am going to post some analysis i did on the phrase "dog eyed" in homeric poetry.

i was reminded of this writing by song lyrics i wrote with my friend:

dog eyed runner where do you run

with chaos walking beside you 

These 3 scenes all use the same word: κῠνώπης, derived from κῠ́ων (dog) and ὤψ (eye/face). Literally, it means “dog-eyed” or “dog-faced.” It is always some sort of insult, usually directed at women. Clytemnestra is shameless in killing her husband. Helen is shameless in starting a ten-year war. So it is especially impactful when Achilles calls Agamemnon κῠνώπης. 

I wanted to observe the significance of κῠνώπης as it relates to dogs and women. This word seems reserved for the most despicable of women, as Agamemmnon describes Clytemnestra in Book 11. He says there is nothing more κύντερον (translated as “shameless”) than a woman who has this much passion in an act like this, murdering her husband. κύντερον also has origins from κῠ́ων and it literally means “dog-like.” Murray’s translation of the word in the Odyssey reminds us of Priam’s speech in Book 22 of the Iliad; dogs feast upon their masters without a shred of shame. Dogs are seen as shameless beings, living with no regrets of their desecration, only looking for gluttonous gratification without considering others. While Clytemnestra obviously did not consider Agamemnon’s feelings in his murder, how does Helen relate to this? 

κῠνώπης is reminiscent of the English phrase “puppy eyes,” used to describe big, soft, vulnerable eyes that could persuade anyone to do anything. I feel like a similar idea is applied to κῠνώπης , but with an emphasis on shameless and selfish seduction, only demonstrated by conniving women. 

Clytemnestra is generally known as Ancient Greece’s worst wife, as shown in Book 11 of the Odyssey. This speech is told by Agamemmnon, husband and victim to Clytemnestra. He describes her with utmost hatred, trying to convince Odysseus of her evilness, with imagery of how once she killed him she turned away (νοσφίσατ᾽, οὐδέ μοι ἔτλη). Clytemnestra even refused to shut his eyes, a custom of respect for the dead (Od 4.426). Agamemnon speaks with a bite in his tone, as seen in the alliteration of ‘τ’ in line 428 (ἥ τις δὴ τοιαῦτα μετὰ φρεσὶν ἔργα βάληται), discussing her premeditated action. He emphasizes Clytemnestra’s agency in her deed, her conscious choice to kill her. There is a repetition of ἔργα... ἔργον (Od 11.428–439), accentuating the gravity and deliberateness of her betrayal. He finishes his speech with a bold and generalizing statement: her actions put shame unto all women, even those of the future (Od 4.434-435). He employs the comparative of θῆλυς (female) in line 435, adding to the generality of the statement. 

The passage from Book 4 is very revealing of Helen’s character. Here, she is portrayed as self-aware, critically thinking, and having emotional depth. She opens with a rhetorical question to Menelaus (Od 4.138-139), highlighting her perceptiveness as an individual, not needing validation or a response. Her speech flows from one line to another with enjambment (Od 4.144-145), showcasing her spontaneous thought but also depth of feeling. She uses epithets for both her husband Menelaus (Μενέλαε διοτρεφές) and Odysseus (Ὀδυσσῆος μεγαλήτορος), portraying them as divine and heroic to Telemachus, while she is κυνώπιδος (line 145). Overall, her speech is riddled with guilt, as she feels to blame for the loss of Odysseus. Still, Helen displays that she is more than a pawn in a war or a wife. 

Finally, Achilles uses κῠνώπης to describe Agamemnon in a heated argument over Briseis, a war bride that Agamemnon took from Achilles. The use of κῠνώπης is most insulting here, as describing a man and his self-gratifying impulses. Achilles’ speech is full of rage and pride. His repetition of negative phrases like οὐ γὰρ πώποτ᾽ (Il 1.154) οὐδὲ μὲν… οὐδέ ποτ᾽ (Il 1.154-55)  οὔ τι μετατρέπῃ οὐδ᾽ (Il 1.160) suggest his absolute refusal and feelings of betrayal. He alludes to his past in Phthia with flourishing language (ἐριβώλακι), evoking pathos for his leaving of home just to be cheated by Agamemnon. Adding to the emotional intensity, Achilles uses direct address to Agamemnon (ὦ μέγ᾽ ἀναιδὲς), calling him shameless, and later κῠνώπης as well. κῠνώπης fits perfectly into Achilles’ upset, the ideal insult in this moment of wrath and Agamemnon’s sexually-charged prideful impulses.


8.08.2024

summer song - jackalope

hey i really love my blog. so I should post on it right? yeah i know. but this summer is swallowing me whole. it is rushing over me like a wave that i refuse to dive through. in general i don't know how to feel about august yet. july passed so slowly, everyday was holepunched. but august is quick. so far. i think i am okay with this. 

i think this is because i turned 17 at the very end of july. 17 is so different and I love it. that is like a whole different post. this post was meant for the song I wrote at the beginning of july. i think i may have wrote it with someone in mind but that person no longer matters to me! also for another blog post. but I love this song a lot. it is played with only fingerpicking like 2 chords but it is so sweet. its called "jackalope" right now but i am open to changing it. i hope to record it and post it on my bandcamp (also called robotics club). 


summer sinks in 

like a dragonfly bite

don’t know why it hurts so bad

skin pierces

it’s just a small thing

but get used to

it being around


summer crawls in 

like a baby bear

it walks on all fours

time will pass and

it will mature

get on two legs and roar


summer seethes

like a leech

stuck to your leg

from the pond

scrape it off

with a playing card

never knew you needed

the six of hearts


summer swarms

like a cicada

every 17 years

i think it’s time for the brood

but don’t be scared i got you

we will stay inside together


summer hides away

like a jackalope

was it all even real

should i mount it on my wall

so big yet so small

let it return to the wild


i think this song aged really well for how my summer is going. i wrote it on july 2nd and its now august 8th. this summer has been kind of transformative yet i am the exact same. i feel like it is a return to my old self. i turned 17 but i also turned 13. i am excited to meet myself for the rest of this summer. but I also want this summer to end immediately and start my senior year already. i think this summer might be the perfect length actually (excluding for my summer homework). in conclusion i have a lot of feelings about these 2 months. i hope they only get richer and more complicated.

i have so much to blog about. all 400 pictures from japan. the 30 page scrapbook i started in tokyo and finished in my bedroom. my other feelings about 17. my feelings about him. and her. and them all. the book I've been reading, Severance by Ling Ma. my new obsession with Cansei de Ser Sexy. the other songs I've written. but I don't know if I will get to it because I'm binging Gossip Girl. and i'm about to binge the new season of the Umbrella Academy. i think i need to just blog more casually. write more reviews of mundane things like the coffees I try and the days I live and the youtube videos I watch. i want to start reading magazines and comics and more books please!

however how much of this will actually happen. because i have to write 2 huge essays this summer. and translate a lot of greek. and edit a documentary under my film internship. and volunteer at the food pantry in the mornings. and apply to colleges :[ I have approximately 27 days left to do all of that (fuck i should not have counted that up). yet after all of that i am excited. i am excited for those 27 days. i am excited for senior year. i am excited to live out this 18th year of my life. and i am excited to blog all about it i hope.

for realz I am going to try to post casually. the dude who inspired me to make this blog literally writes a singular paragraph or posts a painting he likes or whatever. im actually gonna do that right after i press publish on this one because I saw some real cool shit in okayama. but i also love to pour my brainz out and write 6 paragraphs that only sort of tie together. so I guess this post is worth like 4 of that dude's posts!

okay I think i am done with this one. let me just add oneeeeee little picture to top it off.



the summer vibes in kyoto are quite strong.

5.06.2024

weekly update

its been a week! what have i been up to?

First, I've been reading. I finished The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller and started Pandora's Jar by Natalie Haynes. I really liked The Song of Achilles and how immersive it was in the classical world, so much that I knew I had to pick Pandora's Jar back up. Pandora's Jar is a series of short essays exploring women of Greek myth. I read half of the essays last year, but I'm reading it again because since then I have learned so much more about Greek myth. I was especially excited to read the Eurydice and Medea chapters after reading Medea by Euripides and translating the Georgics by Vergil. I could write a lot about The Song of Achilles but the most I will say right now is that I probably would have liked it more if I hadn't translated Book 22 of the Iliad and wasn't enrolled in that Greek class in general. It inhibits my enjoyment because it makes me nitpicky. I want to just enjoy it raw and unknowing.

Second, I've been writing? Today I drafted a new song that I'm titling Motherboard as of right now. It's about knowing people who don't seem human but you really really want them to be. The melody needs some work, so maybe take this verse as a poem or something instead:

words in a voiceover scream
you're not part of this machine
not the mother of the board
not the power to the cord

Of course it has robotic elements. this is robotics club after all. maybe I've been heavy on the motherboards lately but I just love them. 

Third, I've listened to some music! Recently I've listened to the album Masterpiece by Big Thief in CD form because I just bought it and was too excited to wait. I love Big Thief and it truly is a masterpiece. My favorite song on the album is currently Humans or Animals. I also listened to To Pimp A Butterfly by Kendrick Lamar last nite. I listened to it because my little brother loves it and I love my brother. And I can't lie, this Kendrick vs. Drake beef has piqued my interest in Kendrick. It was such a journey of an album, it genuinely felt like watching a movie. My favorite songs are probably Wesley's Theory for the jazz and King Kunta (it's my brother's favorite) and i

Lastly, I took some flicks. Not many. This week will be more prosperous. 




I'm planning on making a collage for a mixtape this week, so if I complete it I will be sharing. Also I have the strong urge to write poetry lately so maybe I'll make some of that. Until next time. 🤖

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