о̄hara museum in kurashiki

trying to be brief for once. here are paintings i loved in the Ōhara museum in Kurashiki, Okayama. i got int trouble for taking a picture of one of the paintings so most of these i had to remember by taking a picture of the placard or writing it down in my notes app. i present you:

Hector and Andromache by Giorgio de Chirico

(the illiad plus mechanical metaphysical elements? this painting was basically made for me)

The Woodcutter by Ferdinand Hodler

(this guy basically only paints lumberjacks for some reason)

Scene in the Deep Sea by Harue Koga

From Now On by Mizuno Rina

Before the Ball by Tsuguhara Foujita

??? by Paul Serusier

??? by Koide Narashige (i think)

Clayey Animal from the Later Han Dynasty

there was a painting called The Day My Son Yo Died in English that I adored but i didn't take a picture of it or note the artists name. I can't find it anywhere online. one day i will find it. all this shit took me like 45 minutes to put together because the о̄hara museum has no website!!!!! and all the english names are different than the actual names so i had to do a lot of reverse image searching via pinterest. i dont even know the names of 2 of these paintings. my favorite by far was Hector and Andromache though. i love mythological art. 

in conclusion what a hidden gem of a museum that deserves more attention. this museum had a ton of picassos and monets as well, all hidden away in the okayama prefecture. a good place to spend your birthday ;]

summer song - jackalope

hey i really love my blog. so I should post on it right? yeah i know. but this summer is swallowing me whole. it is rushing over me like a wave that i refuse to dive through. in general i don't know how to feel about august yet. july passed so slowly, everyday was holepunched. but august is quick. so far. i think i am okay with this. 

i think this is because i turned 17 at the very end of july. 17 is so different and I love it. that is like a whole different post. this post was meant for the song I wrote at the beginning of july. i think i may have wrote it with someone in mind but that person no longer matters to me! also for another blog post. but I love this song a lot. it is played with only fingerpicking like 2 chords but it is so sweet. its called "jackalope" right now but i am open to changing it. i hope to record it and post it on my bandcamp (also called robotics club). 

summer sinks in 

like a dragonfly bite

don’t know why it hurts so bad

skin pierces

it’s just a small thing

but get used to

it being around

summer crawls in 

like a baby bear

it walks on all fours

time will pass and

it will mature

get on two legs and roar

summer seethes

like a leech

stuck to your leg

from the pond

scrape it off

with a playing card

never knew you needed

the six of hearts

summer swarms

like a cicada

every 17 years

i think it’s time for the brood

but don’t be scared i got you

we will stay inside together

summer hides away

like a jackalope

was it all even real

should i mount it on my wall

so big yet so small

let it return to the wild

i think this song aged really well for how my summer is going. i wrote it on july 2nd and its now august 8th. this summer has been kind of transformative yet i am the exact same. i feel like it is a return to my old self. i turned 17 but i also turned 13. i am excited to meet myself for the rest of this summer. but I also want this summer to end immediately and start my senior year already. i think this summer might be the perfect length actually (excluding for my summer homework). in conclusion i have a lot of feelings about these 2 months. i hope they only get richer and more complicated.

i have so much to blog about. all 400 pictures from japan. the 30 page scrapbook i started in tokyo and finished in my bedroom. my other feelings about 17. my feelings about him. and her. and them all. the book I've been reading, Severance by Ling Ma. my new obsession with Cansei de Ser Sexy. the other songs I've written. but I don't know if I will get to it because I'm binging Gossip Girl. and i'm about to binge the new season of the Umbrella Academy. i think i need to just blog more casually. write more reviews of mundane things like the coffees I try and the days I live and the youtube videos I watch. i want to start reading magazines and comics and more books please!

however how much of this will actually happen. because i have to write 2 huge essays this summer. and translate a lot of greek. and edit a documentary under my film internship. and volunteer at the food pantry in the mornings. and apply to colleges :[ I have approximately 27 days left to do all of that (fuck i should not have counted that up). yet after all of that i am excited. i am excited for those 27 days. i am excited for senior year. i am excited to live out this 18th year of my life. and i am excited to blog all about it i hope.

for realz I am going to try to post casually. the dude who inspired me to make this blog literally writes a singular paragraph or posts a painting he likes or whatever. im actually gonna do that right after i press publish on this one because I saw some real cool shit in okayama. but i also love to pour my brainz out and write 6 paragraphs that only sort of tie together. so I guess this post is worth like 4 of that dude's posts!

okay I think i am done with this one. let me just add oneeeeee little picture to top it off.

the summer vibes in kyoto are quite strong.

hiatus over.. so much soon

 hi club! i am back!

a lot has happened. i went to japan. i turned 17 (age reveal). i got my heart broken. and i got a new computer!!!

i have so so so much to share and so so much of august to do it for you. right now the new computer is still adjusting and i am trying to upload all eleven thousand images from my old computer because I simply cannot part with them but it is a struggle.

i have a ton of pics, stories, music, and art to post on here. i also feel like i need to make up for the hiatus so i am probably gonna be spamming. i haven't uploaded the japan flicks yet because i dont know if my new computer (the bloginator 3000) can handle that as of right now. but i am beyond excited for them.

i leave you with a new sotw and a picture of my new laptop wallpaper

idk why but i've had a thing for knights lately (maybe because they look like robots?)

so much to see soon. i missed my club

hiatus incoming

i have to take a hiatus. for two reasons:

1. my computer is so broken right now. I am struggling to use it. I can't really upload anything with it.

2. im going on a huge trip!! so i wont even be with my computer! 

i will be back in august. with lots of stuff to post

hopefully i will fix my computer very soon but i am starting to get worried because i also have like real work I need to do on it. i will be sending it to another robotics club to solve this problem.

this all saddens me because I feel like i have so much to share and i am being restricted so bad.

bye club for now :( i leave you with two pictures and a song of the week.

p.s. i might be able to post on my trip but it will prob be long long paragraphs of text and writing with nothing else because it will be from my little iphone

notebook

hi club!

I think today is the last day I will be posting on schedule. i try to post every monday but I think it's making me less creative. I want to post freely and consistently, but not strictly. sometimes I get on this site and my mind flows but i know it could flow more without this monday schedule stuff. just saying it right now.

anyways here's what I've been doing. i went to the park two days ago with my notebook and pastels and doodled a little while listening to Pure Heroine by Lorde and Nocturne by Wild Nothing. Not sure if those albums are influential in these drawings tho. i definetly want to do this again. I had so much fun. tomorrow I go to the beach and im thinking I draw on the way there. either that or read Stardust by Neil Gaiman.

I drew on that little half scrap first as practice. I want to use this notebook up to the fullest. this was starting at the back of it because the first half was drawings from when i was in elementary school. none of them were remarkable. My favorite thing, though, was this list I wrote:

I've known Brodie since I was 3. she was my ride or die in elementary school. She still is. but I don't still write lists of things to talk about on facetime because I want to make the best of the time I have with my mom's phone. I wish i still loved someone this much. I wonder if anyone will make a list like that for me. I wonder if, back in the day, Brodie made a list like this for me too.

the other cute thing I found was a poem I wrote. My favorite poem used to be This Is Just To Say by William Carlos Williams:

I have eaten

the plums

that were in

the icebox

and which

you were probably

saving

for breakfast

Forgive me

they were delicious

so sweet

and so cold

I wrote my own version apparently:

I loved aliens as a kid. this poem doesn't entirely accurately mimic the original, but maybe next blog post will be a revised version. i love how it says "If you have feet" like the alien is not familiar with the anatomy of the human species, but is with slippers. the second stanza just says "thunderously into/your bedroom/window" without a verb. You fill in the blank I suppose.

this was all very sweet to find. My birthday is coming up and I can't help but feel so old, especially reading these back. but maybe putting new entries into these notebooks is my way of coming back to my youth, especially doodling with this crayonesque style. I love being teenaged and i am not ready to be over with it so I am trying to go back to the start I suppose.

in fact I've been watching raunchy old movies about american teenagehood, specifically Wet Hot American Summer (2001) and Fast Times at Ridgemont High (1982). i originally watched Wet Hot American Summer because it was during the NY/NJ heatwave and i was like yeah, my summer is wet and hot and american right now. then I watched Fast Times because it's classic and I literally got it at the library as a DVD, in the way it was meant to be consumed. i liked it a lot. bring this shit back please.

the best I've got are my flicks from this week, when i went to the beach with my teenaged friends.

I love them. I love brodie still.